Brought up in England it’s very had not to have biblical ‘ideas’ in your brain. No matter how hard you try to dismiss, replace, refute or deny them – things we were taught in our formative years will be etched into out neural pathways. Earworms will surface and stories will mist our thoughts. Culture will swamp ideals with glossy treats and ego-feeding promises and our views might be distorted to suit desires.
The season of Easter approaches; eggs, bunnies, martyrdom and sacrifice and spring, and fatty sweetstuff with a tang of cocoa.
“Peter … this night you will deny me three times” Matthew 26:34
“It’s not denial… I’m just very selective about my idea of reality.” said someone.
I have been looking at Caravaggio’s “Denial of Saint Peter” and have been mulling ways of seeing a contemporary view on it. Alas, grand ideas and dreams have come to nowt, but here’s an image that I have come up with … work-in-progress:
- refusing to admit the truth or reality of something
- the act of not allowing someone to have something
- refusal to satisfy a request or desire
- assertion that an allegation is false
- refusal to acknowledge a person or a thing
- a psychological defense mechanism in which confrontation with a personal problem or with reality is avoided by denying the existence of the problem or reality
But little Mouse, you are not alone,
In proving foresight may be vain:
The best laid schemes of mice and men
Go often askew,
And leave us nothing but grief and pain,
For promised joy!
Still you are blessed, compared with me!
The present only touches you:
When—ouch! I backward cast my eye,
On prospects dreary!
And forward, though I cannot see,
I guess and fear!
After Robert Burns’ “to a mouse”
7 replies on “It’s not denial…”
I have always struggled to find the difference between Peter’s sin and that of Judas.
perhaps Peter didn’t realise his fears until the pressure was on?
Did Judas know his own doubts and fears were under the surface all along and knew it was a matter of time before he gave in… a much harder burden? perhaps?
Never thought of that! Probably true – none f us know how we will react when really put to the test. But Judas could have repented like Peter couldn’t he?
A very interesting thought…
We could admit failings, weep, and be renewed. Like Peter.
We could admit failings weep, and feel guilt. Like Judas.
We could admit failings see no light and lose hope. Like Judas.
We could deny or ignore failings and miss out on life’s fullness. Like many.
Thank you for your very thoughtful comments, Jules.
So sad for Judas. He could not accept or forgive himself. Peter on the other hand can receive forgiveness, learn to accept himself as he is and move on. We are loved. We are forgiven. Let us ask for grace to trust we are forgiven and to learn to love ourselves as God loves us.
Thanks Jayne, I agree.
Accept our failings, reach for a better way.
Accept love, breathe…